“All is in God” I say out loud - “all is in God” - as I’m laying in my bed. I’ve just realized this, realized i exist, and i feel as though i’ve always understood this. Truth is like this.
I’m 3 or 7, or maybe time does not matter at this point, anyway, i’m young, having my first thoughts, my intuition in childlike awe and in essence i feel excellent. My first thoughts. I realize i am alive, i am somebody. There’s a certain fear which follows for which i feel i must do something with my life now. I later learn to be is excellent and love is all i can be.
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All is in God and God is love. Everything is.
Anyway, it’s a late-lit evening with the cherry stars in glimmering gold incandescent shimmers through the deep void of empty sky. Just one star in all this emptiness would be enough to amaze me a millennium, and with millions i feel eternal - this instant.
This instant i recognize myself and my relation with all existence. I wonder where I came from? My parents, yeah, but what about them? Their parents, yeah; but what about them? And it goes on and on, further and nearer something. I wondered when there was something? Never? No, if there was ever never, there’d be always nothing; right? So, surely there’s always been something. And this something is God.
Before me, my parents, this night, these stars, before light, before any of this matter, before any of this mattered or didn’t matter, before there was such thing as before, before time and here - is God.
I wonder what God is doing? Contemplating God? Then thinking me into time? Just a young one under the stars. And then God makes something, and there is nothing else except God so God makes something from all of God, it exists in God. and everything which follows is also in God. my parents parents and me and stars and time and space.
I imagine just a seed is all which exists and this is God. This seed grows on this God seed’s own into a huge universe of one tree. Somewhere there is a bloom, and a petal on this bloom and a speck on this petal and maybe this is me. I am in God.
And i think one day all will return to only a seed again, and it’ll be in no time.